Final Words

“No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.”
                                                         -- Eleanor Roosevelt

I’d like to go on record, as I’ve noticed so many have, as saying that 2013 was not a good year.  It took me down a path that I thought I’d never find myself on.  It took away a lot of things and was unapologetic about it.  The biggest things it took away was my sense of self-worth and self-confidence.  However, while a lot of what happened this year was out of my hands, the biggest things the year took away I allowed and that never should have happened.

I wrote in an earlier blog entry here, now on another blog, the following words:

I remember being a force of nature, a force to be reckoned with.  Someone who knew what needed to be done and could handle it.  Someone who might not be remembered in song and story, but who would have left an imprint on this world nonetheless.  Someone who could make a difference . . .  I can sometimes make the world believe that the fire is still there.  But in my heart, I know that I’d have to push away a lot of ash to get to even one tiny glowing ember that might still be there at the core of my being.

Definitely a low moment in my life.  My morale hit its lowest point during this final month of this  even less than average year, shaking me to the core of my being. 

And for every action …

Wait – what was that?  That was the sound of ashes being shaken off one tiny glowing ember.   Yup, there’s still life in there.

I’d like to do my imitation of a phoenix, but I think the plumage is going to take a while to revitalize to phoenix-like greatness.  Maybe later.  For the time being, let’s just say that the fire has been re-stoked and the ember’s starting to glow brighter.

Happy New Year, everyone.